Pretty Little Mistakes

This lovely book above me has been my summer read. It is a wonderful fictional do over novel that takes you around the world as you vicariously experience everything from a plane crash, to an abortion, to a cult gathering intervention. It is a wonderful read and i suggest it to the entire blogging world, however, it has given me a very false sense of reality. That is to say in life, not in fiction, you are not given second chances or do-overs, you make your decision and suffer the consequences. In the novel many times the consequences are severe, they are outlandish and cruel, yet luckily you have ever right not to settle and try again. Not in the real world! I am about to leave on the the biggest journey of my life and now as i start the packing process and finish up any last minute shopping i have began to question every decision i have ever made! What if i did it all wrong? What if somewhere i should have gone left instead of right and the fate of the rest of my life is depending on it? I am no longer sure what i want to do with my life, who i am going to be, questions that at one point seemed to be answered. However in this intense state of panic i have realized that this life of mine, all those decisions, all those consequences, cannot be controlled. I just have to wait. This is my own novel and i don't have the privilege to read the last page and find out how it ends...i just have to wait! I don't know if i am okay with that. I'm scared. I'm scared of what is or what may not be to come. I really should have just read Harry Potter like everyone else!