"I would like to order some perspective, medium rare."

So i realize that i am entirely new to this whole dating thing and i know for certain i have never been in love, but for some odd reason the idea of "love" is constantly on my brain. Some doctors believe that there is a chemical in the male brain that triggers thoughts of sex every six seconds(and by doctors i mean Otown...) I think that i have a similar chemical, one that triggers thoughts of love all throughout my body exactly every 6 seconds. Like clock work. How romantic! You might be thinking. Actually it is more like this excrusiating reminder of how alone i am and the fact that i do not have that special person in my life who loves me. I have not been loved. Now don't think im getting all emo on you, i know that i am loved by family and friends and i am terribly grateful for that. I have a wonderful family and great friends who i would do anything for. But this type of love that i am thinking about, this type of love that controls me, is unexplicable. It is driven by the idea that there is someone out there for me and i have just not met him yet. Where my frustration comes in is the question of...when? When do i get to meet this person and how many almosts do i have to endure, how many heartbreaks until i find someone to love me back? Because i don't know how many of these i can handle and i don't even have the experience to know if it is all worth it. I really wish i would have gotten the sex brain instead!